Our 5-Ring Circus

Our 5-Ring Circus

Scooter, Quab and Bugs

Scooter, Quab and Bugs
Serving the Princesses since 2004

Tiana and Goose

Tiana and Goose
They really need all of those big brothers...

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Four Chairs

Four Chairs Furniture is where the (very successful!) photography fundraiser took place last weekend. Let me say this first, I have *never* had so much fun having pictures taken! Jami is wonderful and sweet and lovely inside and out. And talented too! Thanks also to Jess for not being afraid of our traveling circus and making our "too cool for you" boys smile. And many thanks to Amy for setting it all up. We thought it was brilliant to use the beautiful light and background of Four Chairs when the gray winter of Utah keeps you indoors. The furniture was all gorgeous and I would happily move in if the store had a kitchen. Actually, never mind. I don't really need a kitchen. If you need furniture, accessories, artwork, or just a way to spend an hour or two surrounded by fabulous things and you live in the Salt Lake/Utah county area, you must stop by. Seriously. The whole store is beautiful and fun. I left feeling inspired to decorate our house.WHAT?? We've only lived here for 10 years and 10 months. We've hardly had enough time to do anything but unpack, right?
So there, Four Chairs, now all three of my blog readers will drop by! You are welcome!

Monday, February 22, 2010


Apparently I am not the only one feeling the way I did in my last post. By the way, I still feel that way and the same people are still walking around without a clue. I love this post because someone is *always* more eloquent than I am, more able to get the words out of their head and onto the page. Thank God!

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

How Do They Do It?

Tonight I am sitting here wondering this: How can people hear or see or read about orphans, babies who have not been matched with adoptive parents, older children who need homes and food and love, and feel NOTHING? How can it be so easy to just say "We already have two," or "The timing isn't right," "Life is too crazy," or "That's not what we planned?" I have heard all of these phrases within the past few months, from people who quite frankly, shocked me. How do you say any of these things like they are just logical facts, make such a final statement, without emotion, without that tear that inevitably escapes if  you actually take a second to think about the future of those children? How can a person's heart be so hardened that they don't feel a tug of compassion, just a glimmer of desire to make it work, even when it doesn't make sense? How can we, who "have it all" justify NOT making a little more space in our homes and in our hearts? Does everything have to be perfect before we can love someone?

Yet, every moment, our Heavenly Father loves them all. What a blessing that He doesn't worry about the cleanliness of his family room or the emptiness of his bank account or the chaos at His dinner table. He would never say "There is no more room." He loves us all, as broken and unworthy as we are and as stupid and hardheaded as we act. I watched one of the "Mormon Messages" today, hoping for some peace. The very last line (from Thomas S. Monson) was "Don't let a problem to be solved become more important than a person to be loved."

I am no better than anyone else. My faults are many and glaring, but I can't think of many times that, upon hearing about a child who needed a family, I didn't have a quick thought of  "Could we do this?" Yet, I know people in every area of my life, some very close, who can dismiss them without a second thought. It would be so much easier if I knew how to turn it off and tune it out. I would sleep at night. I would not be tormented daily by the faces and the stories and the things I have seen with my own eyes. But I don't want to be that way. I'll take the chance and love that baby boy for just one day, even though I am told over and over that I should not. My dreams are full of brown faces and dark eyes and soft little curls. It has been this way for many years, and no matter how hard I pray for it, I suspect I will never find the peace I seek. Maybe instead of peace I need to seek more determination, more assertiveness, more ability to stand up for these little ones and shout "OPEN YOUR EYES!"

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

Fotos For Food (you better read this post, people!)

Another family who is adopting a (very cute and incredibly sweet) little girl from Luckyhill is having a (brilliant, if you ask me) Photography Fundraiser with all proceeds going directly to Luckyhill's nutrition program. We would love to see every child at the school receiving lunch every day. Follow the link for the details, and think about the last time you had pictures done of your kids. It is embarrassing that ALL who enter our home can see that we haven't had a decent family picture since Bellarella was 2. Which was exactly 3 years BEFORE Tiana came home. So yeah, we're long overdue and it is a fantastic deal and a very worthy cause. We've already signed up, we're not just bossing you all around. Well, maybe just a little but I'm okay with that. Now, Go Forth and Schedule Thy Portrait Sessions!

Thursday, February 4, 2010

The Answer To "WHY?"

My friend, Lois just shared this on her blog. More than most people I know, she really lives the words in this song. For everyone who asks why we do what we do, why the things that used to be important no longer are, why we thought our already big family was not complete (and may never be) or why I went to Africa alone in October, here is your answer.

By the way, Sara Groves has an incredible voice and many more songs that I love. She also has a new 9 year old fan here. After watching the video the first time in complete silence, he has asked for it over and over. He's a tough guy, you know. So his tears were probably from the dust in the house, or maybe allergies.

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Dear Mister Punxsutawney Phil,

In the oft-heard words of my young sons, Aaaaaw, COME ON!!!
That is all. ~shiver~

Monday, February 1, 2010

All I can add is AMEN!

From another family who has adopted from Ghana, here is one of the BEST posts I've ever read. If you are thinking about, praying about or just wondering about adopting, especially older children or siblings, please read this post:
Inquiring About Adoption