C-R-A-Z-Y, that's me!!

:stepping onto my soapbox:
There are a couple of people who have told me recently (in no uncertain terms) that I'm nuts after expressing my desire to keep building my family through adoption. These are very close friends and family members who ought to know me better, buuuuuut. Last week during our family reunion, people kept saying how great it was for all of our kids to be there together, and every time I wanted to say "not ALL of them are here!" There are some who are thinking that I've gone completely crazy right about now (or a long time ago), and you can go ahead and feel that way. I will never agree with you. My family is big, but awesome. Our house is filled with love. There is enough to go around a couple of times. You will never walk into my home and exclaim over its immaculate condition or stylish decor. It is much more likely for you to gasp and wonder when was the last time we vacuumed, or whose fingerprints are all over the front door. I leave them there on purpose. They will never be so small again. These things ought to bother me more, but they don't. Seeing kids who have pitiful food, torn clothes, nobody to tuck them in, that bothers me. My sink is full of dishes, which means we all had plenty to eat today. We even fed a friend or two. There is a pile of laundry as big as the couch that needs to be put away, so everyone here obviously has something to wear and more than one outfit. I spent an hour outside laughing at kids on the slip-and-slide today instead of mopping my kitchen. So.What. I kiss them all goodnight and hug them at school when they let me. (Preteen boys get a little bit iffy with the Mom PDAs). we make sure they do their homework and read every day, they all get good grades and excel in their chosen activities. I take no credit for their inborn talents, but I do take credit for supporting them in everything they try, even when I think they might be crazy. Ask one of my kids whether they did anything fun with their Mom today, and I guarantee that you will get a YES. Ask any adult who grew up in a spotless house whether they have more memories of playing with their Mom, or watching her bustle around snapping at everyone to keep the house clean. Loving a child doesn't make anyone crazy. Answering the call to help doesn't make anyone crazy. Doing things that don't make a lick of sense just because they feel RIGHT is not crazy either, even when it is HARD. It doesn't have to make sense. It's not supposed to be easy. The timing is almost always NOT perfect, at least in our eyes. Sometime in our lives, we will have to step out on faith and do something that looks CRAZY, simply because we've been led to it and the only way to go is forward, with the Lord leading the way. Say YES. Do what is RIGHT, even if it's HARD. You are NOT CRAZY. Neither am I. /end rant